This is the generation that seek your face

Crossroad

2009-05-15T10:44:00.000-07:00

I don't know if it is me being focus or chicken.
Got everything ready but didn't send it out.
Kept checking out updates and details on openings, but couldn't make up my mind.
It's like I am betraying a part of me if I send it.
Where was the determination I used to have in wanting something?
I don't want to be defeated by reality.
I still want to embrace my dream.

Random

2009-05-13T10:09:00.000-07:00

事過情遷後昇華眼淚後
沒有激情沒有感情有另一種邂逅

還是好朋友

Nothing

2008-06-02T14:52:00.000-07:00

After a long sleepless night, I opened the window and breathe in the first morning breeze. I saw people starting to walk down the street, to wait for buses, to go jogging. I finally feel I have some company, no interaction but satisfying enough for me to calm my restless mind. The sky is turning bright. I wish my mind could be as clear as the sky.

I turn on the TV. I cannot afford one more piece of news to break my heart. I choose to stay with the financial channel as they are playing classical music. Piano is something that can rest my soul.

More people are walking down the street. The sky is brighter and brighter. However, I still feel like sitting here forever, unwilling to rest my weary eyes.

I finally cried. I wish I could tell you why, but there's absolutely nothing but a blank mind.

Bitter-sweet

2008-04-14T12:12:00.000-07:00

It's until now I realized it's already April.

I haven't written anything here since my grandma passed away. It's almost half a year, but I still miss her a lot.

Life goes on, but memory lingers on, and become a bitter-sweet old song. And no matter which song you are, they are always in my heart.

I wish you well.

Goodbye grandmamma

2007-12-13T22:26:00.000-08:00

Get so caught up everyday
Tryna keep it all together
While the time it slips away
You see I know nothing last forever

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn't see your face
There would be no limit to my sorrow
So all I can say

I wanna tell you something, give you something
Show you in so many ways
'cause it would all mean nothing if I don't say something before it all goes away
Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour let alone another day
I'm gonna tell you something, show you something, won't wait till it's too late

Just a simple conversation
Just a moment is all it takes
I wanna be there just to listen
(I wanna be here)
And I don't wanna hesitate

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn't see your face
There would be no limit to my sorrow
'cause there's nothing that could fill that space
I don't wanna put it off for too long
I didn't say all that I had to say
I wanna take my time and right the wrong before we get to that place

Just lean on my shoulder,
It's not over till it's over
Don't worry about it cause
I'm gonna make sure our bond gets stronger
I don't wanna wait till the storm and something wrong and now you're gone and I can't find you

dream

2007-09-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, all these look so much like a joke to my life.

Life is somtimes like a dream. There are happy dreams as well as nightmare. When you had a bad bad dream, you'll be so glad that it's just a dream. On the other hand, if they are happy dreams, you'll be so upset to find that it's just a dream and rather haven't ever dreamt of that.

YOU

2007-07-24T09:53:00.001-07:00

I have never stopped thanking God since the day I met you.
You're always my best friend, the one who share everything with me, no matter it's tears or laughters. You're the one who inspire me to be better, challenge me to seek God more each and every single day.
It's been a rough way before we got to this stage, but I am grateful that it's not an easy way instead. As when it's not easy, I can see God's guidance and blessings more. And I'll never stop counting the blessings and praising Lord for HIS beautiful plan. HE is always the best story writer of life and I'm happy that we are in this story together.

I love it when you explain to me things I don't understand.
I love it when you make me laugh.
I love it when you make me cry.
I love it when you surprise me.
I love it when you hold my hands.
I love it when you hold my hands as you drive.
I love it when we pray together.
I love it when we serve together.
I love it when you let me be the DJ in your car.
I love it when we rock the beat together.
I love it when you make time for me.
I love it when you give me a hug when I am in the middle of work.
I love it when you remember what did I say.

I love it......that you love God so much.

THE E.N.D.

2007-07-07T11:59:00.000-07:00

遺棄這舊汽車消滅記憶那裂痕
忘記曾坐著你車邁向荒廢樹林
面前長路越來越暗臨別越來越近
再遠看你家就當臨走情人熱吻

手中緊握車匙追不到往事
方知掛念較懷念更容易
相愛憑幾幾公里飛馳
要停下回望太遲
手中拋開車匙路上便無依
車裡幾多溫馨故事幾聲願意
原來只不過是幻覺磨蝕我的心志

Understand

2007-07-04T10:49:00.000-07:00

I made you think, you don't understand.

I used to think that happiness could only be something
That happened to somebody else
Everybody believed, everybody but me,
And I've been hurt so many times before,
That my hopes was dying, so sick of trying
Everybody could see, everybody but me,
But then you came into my life, you opened up my softer side
And now I can see into your eyes
And suddenly, I realize.

I made you think, you don't understand
All the times you didn't understand,
Why you couldn't just be my man.
I made you think, you don't understand
There were many walls you had to climb,
If you really wanted to be mine.
I made you think, you don't understand
After all the hoops I put you through,
Now I see that I'm in love with you

Now, I hope you finally understand.

So many tears I've had to cry,
But you had many more of your own you had to try
But you stuck it out and you're here with me now,
And rememberin' the days I pushed away your love,
You called my bluff and you still stayed around,
Yeah you figured me out
Said, you got me down
And there's no way to lie to you, you know me better than I do

you see me through,
I'd be no good without you.

Home

2007-06-22T13:02:00.000-07:00

Though there's pain in the offering,

BLESSED BE YOUR NAME, LORD.

Christy's Blog: http://www.fotop.net/christy1225/prayforchristy/

Joey

2007-06-18T08:01:00.000-07:00

I guess it's never easy to say goodbye, when it comes to people so close to your heart.

Have been too busy to acknowledge that Joey's leaving in few days. It may be a good thing as I won't be too overwhelmed by that. But when it came to the moment I saw her back turning to me and made her way into the departures, I sensed the heaviness inside of me. And yes, just as what my friend said it's pretty much like a part of me left with her. Tears came down, complicated emotions kicked in, everything started to make no sense to me as I found my heart quite empty suddenly.

My heart rained even heavier when I opened that card she left me. I don't have to read the words but just by understanding that she picked that card because it's black and gold......my favorite color. And I wonder is there anything of me that she won't pay attention to or remember when I told her.

That's why I always try to avoid sending people away at the airport. The visualisation of goodbye is just too much for me to handle. And I always think that I have had too much of these heartaches already in the past, for losing something that is or was so dearly to me. But wait, that's what makes life wonderful and real. All these tears worth something when I learned a little bit more about the truth, that is we shouldn't avoid pain if it's intended by God to be there for you to live your life to the fullest. And I'll still praise God when it's hurting, I'll still choose to say I know you're near God when nothing can be seen in the dark, and believe in God even harder when everything seems to be going down, press even more onto the things that God has promised me for I know HE loves us so much to make us not a robot, but with the privileges of having free will, emotions and feelings.

And on my way walking back home after I left the airport, I saw a plane flying in the sky and I stopped right there. I waited till the plane disappeared in my eye-sight and continued making my way home, step by step with this song playing in my own little world......

Things I Wish

When the night is long
And the dreams you've been holdin' seem all but gone
When you're tired, cold and weak
And you can't stop your mind, no you can't even sleep.....

I know that you're worried
And you're in such a hurry
But you know you're never alone
You're never alone.....

So wherever you go let my love shine a light
Down every road be it left or right
May it always get you through
These are the things, all the things I wish for you.....

In my eyes, in my heart
Oh, you shine like a diamond brighter than the stars
The whole world waits for you
Just be sure to find joy in whatever you choose.....

And don't look so worried, darlin'
There's no need to hurry
Always know, I believe in you
I believe in you....

And wherever you go let my love shine a light
Down every road be it left or right
May it always get you through
These are the things, I wish, I wish that
Music and laughter would fill your days.........

And whatever you're after is on its way
To make all your dreams come true
These are the things, all the things I wish for you.......

Just wanna see you happy, little one
I wanna see you smile that smile......

Go on and spread your little wings-fly, fly, fly.....

And wherever you go let my love shine a light
Down every road be it left or right
May it always get you through
These are the things, I wish, I wish that........

Music and laughter would fill your days
And whatever you're after is on its way
To make all your dreams come true
These are the things, all the things I wish for you.....

Oh, and may all your dreams come true
These are the things, all the things I wish for you.......

Jay

2007-06-11T10:52:00.000-07:00

I was lying on the floor of the dinning room, totally be still in God's love.

It's been a hard month for me, as well as a very blessed month.

I still remember what Jay shared about during bible study last thursday. "Even though it's hurting to leave everything behind, but if it's God's will, I will follow as God's the only one thing I just can't leave behind or live without."

He said that with tears hanging, and I know there's so much love in between him and God in every word he's spoken. It totally striked me. With faith and the trust in God, this young man steps into another journey, leaving all the people he's known for his life, holding back the tears and says that he'll still praise God no matter what, he'll still trust in Him no matter what.

This morning,I got a text from him. Not just saying goodbye, but blessed my heart with the love God's given him.
"I know that there will be more laughs that will come. Don't wait for them to find you. Never forget that if this white guy can dance then there are more miracles yet to come."
I was in tears not because of an awesome dancemate I had to say goodbye to, but the love of God overflew to me through every words he wrote. I have nothing that's good enough to deserve just a glimpse of holiness and kindness of God, yet everyday I wake up with God telling me how much he loves me.

"So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart, O God, completely to you
I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the one who gave it all
I'll stand my soul Lord to you surrendered
All I am is yours"

最後一封沒有寄出的信

2007-06-10T12:52:00.000-07:00

有多久沒有看見你笑了。
我想，大概有三年多吧！
現在誰令你笑了，誰讓你坐立不安了......不是我吧。
因為你，傷了好多個心。可是，自己的卻一直好不起來。
常常問自己，有這麼愛嗎?仍然愛嗎?可以不愛嗎?
最終，原來刻骨銘心的只有自己一人。
狼狽真的比失去難受，所以也就這樣算了吧，好嗎?
不要了，放棄了﹔在未來的畫面抹掉你，不再在生命舞臺的觀眾席去預留位置。

怎麼這樣寫著寫著，還是有想要愛你的衝動。

沒有寄出的信6

2007-06-10T12:22:00.000-07:00

好耐冇寫信俾你。
今次更加係第一次係飛機到寫。
雖然唔知道你會唔會睇到，但係依然好想寫。

每一次離開香港，心情總係特別複雜。雖然去既時間唔長，但畢竟人愈大就愈記掛自己屬於既地方。

其實我真係好支力，好大壓力，好辛苦。好想好想話俾你知，因為你一句加油比一支葡萄適一個睡眠更見效。可能你從來唔知道，你每一句說話既影嚮力一直冇消失過。每一個再辛苦既表演，只要知道你係台下，就算得番最後一分氣力都可以繼續出力、繼續去笑、繼續去跳。真係好希望呢一切都唔會成為你既壓力。因為能夠同你分享台上既風光、生命裡面一點一滴係我最大既歡樂同埋滿足。

唔知你有冇試過心裡面太多感覺，根本唔知點表達。只係想有個人坐係隔離，知道對方既存在。我估呢一刻係空氣既我，正正係呢個感覺。

Flight to Seattle

沒有寄出的信5

2007-06-07T09:52:00.000-07:00

跳完了。
能夠化身成女人的命運去跳一隻舞，是我的榮幸。
很喜歡這一套劇。縱然未必叫好叫座，卻一點一點的衝擊著我的思緒。
女主角，彷彿像是往昔的自己。
敢愛敢恨，卻未能如願以償；付出了所有，卻能自己愛的人逃得更遠。
愛你變成恨你，每一天都在發生。
古時的愛情故事，卻道盡了現今的愛情悲劇。
這兩分半鐘的舞台，提醒著兩年多前的愛情光景。是巧合？不是巧合。
舞跳完了，不知道你看到沒有。
總覺得你是看不到的，希望不會是真的吧！

8/4/06 8:00p.m. 上環文娛中心後台

沒有寄出的信4

2007-06-05T11:08:00.000-07:00

在這個歡樂的晚上，我落淚了。
再一次為著過去的自己，讓自己離祝褔更遠。
想著自己多麼不惹人喜愛，總覺得幸褔是不屬於我的。
把銀包裡的相拿下了，不是因為愛消失了。而是，我更愛主。如果知道不是他，雖然心裡會很難過。但是，當初說交給神，現在到底還是要放下。
願你賜下最豐盛的生命，作為他最好的生日禮物。

Psalm 103

27-3-06 4:40 a.m.

沒有寄出的信3

2007-06-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

在寫這信之前，其實已掙扎了好幾個晚上。這一晚，我和天父說我要給你寫一封信。願這封信能成為一個祝褔，一個修補。
很想跟你說對不起。那天在the vine的service中，談到ask for forgiveness。不止向神求，而是亦都向身的人ask for forgiveness。我想起了你。
對不起，曾經在信仰的路上絆倒你，自己遇溺還要硬拉著你下沉。在那天晚上，我向神承認了自己的不潔。求祂接納、潔淨，眼淚不自覺地大顆顆掉下來。當中，還想到了對你的虧欠。那種對不起的感覺，彷彿是怎樣賠罪、補救也幫不上似的。始終很想親口向你說聲“對不起”；但對不起，我太懦弱了。在這裡，懇請你原諒我過去的幼稚及無知。那些傷害人的說話，真的不是我由衷的感想。為了掩飾自己那時的傷痛，任性說了很多不義的說話。現在明白了，才知道自己有多麼的惱人。對不起。

可能，這些來得太遲的對不起於你而言已沒啥特別。我也知這，這些覺悟也是真的來晚了一點。但是，我真是很希望得到你的原諒。感恩的是，我和你依然在捉繄主的救恩。

除了說對不起，還要說聲多謝。
感謝主，賜給我舞蹈的機會。當上舞蹈員的過程一點也不容易，但付出了的汗水和勞力卻帶給我很大的滿足。由始至終，也沒有後悔選擇了這條路。縱然說我笨、說我浪費了學業的聲音依然有很多；但就是在這麼多的情況下，心卻愈來愈堅定。假若當天沒有你支持我去選擇這條路，可能我早已放棄了。在那時，你是唯一一個支持我的人。
去年你到中大看我表演時，竟有久違了的緊弱張。有點像見家長，亦有點像考試的感覺。結果跳得不好，十分惱自己，沒有給你看到自己的進步。不過，心裡還是很感激你能抽空到來。

在過去的一年踏遍了世界的舞台，衝衝忙忙的看盡了這圈子的黑暗。不過依然很難放手。曾經給那些黑暗打敗了，想放棄了。可是還有一個願望，就是你和我父母都能在紅館做我的觀眾。很遺憾，經歷了這麼多演出，卻始終沒有勇氣邀請你們。不是害怕悶壞你們，便是害怕你們沒有時間。但是，真的很想和你們分享在舞台的喜悅。希望有一天，在我決定和這舞台說再見之前，你能來到支持我。真的.......

沒有寄的信2

2007-06-01T23:21:00.000-07:00

有很多想說的，應該說的，從來都沒有說出口。
轉瞬間，我帶著這些話，渡過了好幾個年頭。
也許，那些話對你來說，已經一點意義都沒有。
可是，每當回憶來襲，這些話總徘徊在唇上，在耳邊。
每當回憶起你的時候，總有些複雜的情緒在盪漾。有甜蜜的，有慚愧的，有幸褔的，到最後原來只剩下最大的後悔。
常常在想，如果當日我可以成熟一點，為你著想多一點，冷靜多一點，你或許還會在台下看著我欣喜地拍掌；我或許還可以和你拍一張畢業禮的合照，互相分享大家事業上下的苦功，為抱來的點點成就去歡呼。
已沒有再去問神為何在我生命裡帶走一個我如此深愛過的人。當放下了埋怨、憎恨，剩下的原來是一串的反省和學習。
原來，要成為一個更好的人，從來都不是一件容易的事。當我看過更幽暗的一切，才發覺主的光一直還在我身後照耀著。終於明白到，發生過的一切，都是主要我學習的，都是我所缺乏的。

沒有寄的信1

2007-06-01T23:01:00.000-07:00

原來有比較，才知道心裡的答案。
一句ICQ的問好，教我又有溫暖的感覺去繼續生活，去繼續闖前面的路。
是的，再綾亂的思緒還是敵不過感覺。
那種溫暖，那種喜悅，那種羞澀，是久違了的感動。
想跟你說的，都沒有說，怕再嚇跑你，怕自己的守候，只是一種負累。
默默地愛，是神給我的功課吧。
這個聖誕節，我願以最誠懇的心，去為你祈禱，為你的生命獻上一個又一個的祝褔。

Flight to San Francisco 12/8/05

2007-06-01T23:00:00.001-07:00

I think it's time to release it all and break the chain.

我懷念的

2007-05-30T11:14:00.000-07:00

你喜歡懷念嗎?

懷念一些人，一些事，一些景物，一些地方，一些氣味。
懷念好像帶著悲哀的感覺，因為畢竟失去了擁有過的，才有懷念的權利。

懷念可以很累人，但亦可以是淡淡然的。

當一天你忽然懷念起某些人某些事，再沒有呼天搶地，而是一笑而過。那時候，你便知道是再踏上旅途的第一頁。

時間真是一種奇妙的東西。有些說話在想說的事候沒有說，過後無論怎樣砌詞也沒意思。應該活在當下，而不是過去。他讓我明白到，選擇不應受過去影響。每一天都是新的一天，為何要背著昨天的事，令新的一天變成舊的一天。無論有多少曾想說的想做的、已說的已做的抑或沒有說的沒有做的，也通通沒有關係了。不能再給藉口去扼殺幸褔和快樂，去逃避思想和情感。

踏出了這個繞著走了很久的圓圈，原來心還是會跳。
這一步好不容易，幸而有你看穿我自己和自己玩的遊戲，我輸了給你卻贏了自己，不錯不錯，嘻！
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我懷念的　是無言感動
我懷念的　是絕對炙熱
我懷念的　是無話不說　
我懷念的　是一起作夢
我懷念的　是爭吵以後　
還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日　也記得那一首歌
記得那年星空　最近的右手在那的胸口
誰記得　誰忘了
太愛了沒有哭沒有說

2007-05-28T12:57:00.000-07:00

被現實推擠　夢想會變形
執著讓人　覺得好吃力
我只是看著你　瞭解的神情
微笑揚起　又能繼續

有時候愛是一種眼神　趕走所有苦悶
是你讓我記得自己不是一個人
有你在甚麼都有可能　因為彼此信任
真的愛情不需要保證

你從不勸我　別逆風飛行
牽手陪我　向夢前進

way back into love

2007-05-22T11:39:00.000-07:00

Ive been living with a shadow over head
Ive been sleepin with a cloud above my bed
Ive been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just cant seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just incase I ever need them again someday
Ive been setting aside time,to clear a little space in the cornners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
ohh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs
I know that its out there
Theres got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart again
I guess Im hopin you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I dont know if its real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart to you
Im hopin you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that I'll be there for u in the end

Perseverance

2007-05-15T07:51:00.000-07:00

As much as I know about love, it's very much about perseverance.

Perseverance (definition from dictionary):
1. steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., ESP. IN SPITE OF DIFFICULTIES, OBSTACLES, OR DISCOURAGEMENT.

I love the last sentence......

Blessing

2007-05-14T12:07:00.000-07:00

Few days ago, I went to a drug addict rehabilation centre called "OPERATION DAWN" with a team from the States.

It's truly amazing coz I never imagine God will teach me so much just in a short day.

Basically, it's founded by a pilot at 1968 and since then, the government rented the island to OPERATION DAWN at the price of $1 after they realised gospel can really help people to quit drugs.

So there are drug addicts, brothers and social workers living together on the island. They have worship, quiet time and bible study everyday. The island is beautiful. They showed us around the island and there's a point really amazed me. There is a huge cross standing high on the mountain top. They told us it's being made and as well as transported by the drug addicts living there. It totally blows my mind.

And we had some sharing time as well. I was talking to one of the leader there and asked him what he struggles most serving at this ministry. One thing he talked about is humility. Some drug addicts constantly challenge them with personalities issue. So they have to be very careful and remain still even they came across with unreasonable emotions as well as attitudes. Being a leader is not about how good you are, how many bible verses you can remember. God really speaks through this brother that a humble heart speaks it all. Even though those drug addicts don't know the God he knows, but yet he still loves them with Jesus love and embrace all, insteading of getting mad or judging them for sinning.

It's just beautiful to see God's creation loving and supporting each other.

tickets

2007-05-12T21:23:00.000-07:00

Anyone wants the tickets of Sammi Cheng's concert which is on 18/5 (coming friday) at 8:15, the 3rd row. There are two avaliable.
Leave me a comment if you are interested!!!! Don't wanna waste it!!!

luckiest girl

2007-05-07T10:22:00.000-07:00

I remember someone said to me not long ago,"Judith, do you know you could be the luckiest girl ever if that's not the way it goes?".

As I was looking outside at the balcony, I saw this half moon and stars in the sky.

And I remember......

someone thinking about you when they saw these stunning views
someone remember exactly what you like

It's all too good to be true......only if I could be less stubborn,right?

2007-05-06T11:09:00.001-07:00

Forgive myself

2007-05-02T12:32:00.000-07:00

Never thought I'm getting so much more than just an entertainment from watching Spiderman 3.

There's one line like this, "The hardest thing ever in life......is to forgive yourself."

I'm a typical example of this but didn't realise that until I watched this movie.

I finally forgive myself for everything I've done wrong to lose something I really want.

It's something new and that's FREEDOM.

finally

2007-05-01T09:43:00.000-07:00

There's time for everything.

Finally, I think it's about time after all these years.

I guess I'm down to my last cry.

2007-04-30T04:42:00.000-07:00

If your love was all I had in this life,
that would be enough until the end of time.

Flaws and all

2007-04-25T03:14:00.000-07:00

I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all

HIGH SCHOOL

2007-04-23T11:05:00.000-07:00

Today is one DRAMATIC day in my life.

It makes me scream so much,no matter it's really screaming out loud or only from my heart.

But I thank God my day ended with smiles and laughs instead of screaming.

Thinking about my days in high-school is the sweetest thing ever to me.Even u guys may not be reading my journal or u do,I just really wanna take this chance to tell u all that I DO miss you and every one of you is so important.I never tell but actually it's very heart-breaking for me to always the gathering because of work.

Still remember when we were still at schools,getting frustrated with really vivid stuffs like exams,messing up our desks with textbooks and papers,running up and down the stairs to go to classes,practising softball with those stinky gloves,putting cheesy lyrics into old songs......I can go on forever.

And what's more,I get to know abt God in high school.God knew I'm weak so that's why he put the whole group of you to go to church together with me,to be a caring n luving sister to me.Throughout all these years,you all contribute a huge part to my walk with God.Even more than that,being able to witness each other's growth is the best thing ever to me.How God lead us from a naive high school girl to the place where we are.Yeah,it's you I'm talking about.A nurse,a designer,a PA@media,a business woman,a uni student,a linguist......isn't it amazing how God all brought us so far but yet we are still together.

I miss my school uniform,even it's like the most inconvenience dress to move around.
I miss those tables, even I remember there are times we've got ants in that.

Hospital

2007-04-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

That's how I spent my time in hospital......

Can you tell how bored I was?

My world

2007-04-19T11:13:00.000-07:00

I switch off my cell phone

light a candle

listen to jazz music with my red headphones

and some pokfulam fresh air around

Welcome to my own little world.

Hi and Bye

2007-04-11T21:41:00.000-07:00

I am back but I am leaving again to Malaysia today.

Just think that it'll be great to leave a word here to let you all know how I miss you guys.

Don't hesitate to pray for me,text me or even fly over to Malaysia to see me,hahaha.

Something for you to laugh with when I'm gone

NYC,CONNECTICUT,ELLEIN N MIKE

2007-04-08T03:12:00.000-07:00

I'm missing everyone so much already,but getting to meet up Ellein and Mike in NYC compensated a lot.What's more is they CAME TO WATCH THE SHOW!!They were so cute to keep waving at me and I had to knod my head to let them know I saw them to make them stop.I'm so blessed to have friends around the world to make all my shows so meaningful,so memorable.

I gotta to another one tmr afternoon again and it's already 6am sth here.It's crazy.

A crazily oily pork skin@Taipei Airport
wonder who will really eat that

View from my hotel rm@Connecticut

My room,bed is huge and so high(no idea why though),can u see my macbk at the corner?

Me and Ellein@NYC subway

NYC China town,it's like 90s HK

My respectable choreographer,HERBERT!!

All my co-workers luv Ellein n Mike coz they're a really gd host

Me,Ellein and Mike after show,I got them sneaked into the staff canteen in the casino with our pass

Hopefully I didn't get sick coz I'm feeling a lil bit headache and running nose.Dun think I really have time to get sick so I think I gotta kick myself to bed now.

Homesick

2007-04-06T02:13:00.000-07:00

I'm now sitting in the Mohegan Sun Hotel in CT,feeling really homesick.

I blame it on the weather,even though it's not snowing but still I can say freezing cold.

I wanna return to HK asap,but at the same time,going back to HK represents the start of another crazy schedule,Edmond's concert in Genting Malay n Sammi's concert in HK.It's like there's no near end I can see to have some time to chill,to relax.The stress is growing so strong making me feel so numb with things around me,or maybe I can say not happy.I really need God's strength to pull me back up again.

Still,I guess I wanna come back no matter what,I am missing my bed already.

DANCERS

2007-03-28T10:05:00.000-07:00

"Dancers are the only athletes who aren't allowed to show how much it hurts."

"Dancing appears glamorous, easy, delightful. But the path to the paradise of that achievement is not easier than any other. There is fatigue so great that the body cries, even in its sleep. There are times of complete frustration; there are daily small deaths. " Martha Graham

"Dancers are the athletes of God." ~Albert Einstein

These are all soooo true

PROOF

2007-03-26T08:15:00.000-07:00

When I was a little girl, I always think that giving up is really easy.

Well,time just proved me wrong.

Or it'll finally prove me right some time later,not very soon.

OVERCOMING+OBEDIENCE

2007-03-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

So words for the night are OVERCOMING and OBEDIENCE.

"For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak."
Mark 14:38

So that's why we need to OVERCOME all the weaknesses by relying on God so that HE can equip us to be in line with his will.How awesome that is?HE doesn't really need us but still he provides.What has been holding me back should not hold me back anymore as I am reminded that my body can actually be strong with God's grace.

Totally slapped my face coz I have been so stressed out by work,without remembering that God never let got of me.

The another really challenged me tonight is OBEDIENCE.I often relate obedience to sacrifice but they are actually sooooo different.You can sacrifice something even you are not willing to.But when it comes to obedience,it means a willing attitude which leads to an act of sacrifice.We can always sacrifice things for God,but he doesn't want that indeed.He wants us to OBEY,that is to sacrifice WILLINGLY.

Prayer of the day:
FOR THE SPIRIT IS WILLING,AND THE BODY IS STRONG!!!

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY

2007-03-22T11:15:00.001-07:00

I accidentally find out today is actually the day I hv been posting on this blog for ONE YEAR.WOW!I never expect I do really keep updating this thingy.

Everyday is like a battle.But by God's grace,everyday is a battle won as well.
Stress and fear has filled my heart lately.With no idea how to fit into different rehearsal scehdules unless really chopping myself up,physically broke down with my cold and old wounds at my ankle,there's no way out but just crying out to God.

Still,I haven't solved a problem yet but before that,I know I hv to repend to God coz of my little trust.I have been brought down by enemies to think that my Lord's not gonna protect me,I'm such AN IDIOT!!!Every single prayer I received today in person or thru msn,just remind me more of God's power n how little faith I have.And God's just amazing that after I dried my tears,he filled my heart with so much joy that not even one single laughter is fake when I was teaching Revolve,worshipping him with all I have in me.It's such a blessing to worship God together with my brothers and sisters with our body.

I'm weak,I'm broken,but yes,that's me and I know God still loves me.

YUM CHA

2007-03-21T09:46:00.000-07:00

Symptoms of getting old.....

always YUM CHA.like to eat "shou bao".

hahaha,but I love it.

Thanks God I can watch 300......surprisingly it's pretty much like a comedy at some point.hahahaha,still can't stop myself laughing whenever I remember that dead man's head with a struggling face spinning around in the air in slow motion......well......that's for sure a highlight of the movie.

My week

2007-03-17T11:07:00.000-07:00

This week basically isn't really tough.
Feel so blessed to go to watch DREAMGIRLS finally.Why do I say finally?Coz we have been trying to fix a day to watch it since the end of February.Plus,HON blessed me n Jan with the tickets.HO YEAH!!!!

The movie is really gd and it's even better when I watched it with them coz they just couldn't stop singing along during the movie......it's IFC tho,ha.

Then it came Friday.My first try out to drive to the Kowloon side.Even though I almost went to shatin on my way back to the hung hom tunnel......it's a great adventure anyways.

Haven't been to 180 for weeks and it's gd to be back.
So this week is all about BE FREE.
Faith is the way to BE FREE as we simply hold on to the promise of God.Hold on to doesn't mean only knowing it,but instead trusting it with all you have,without knowledge of past experience.
It's just awesome to hear the truth.All sweet to acknowledge that God loves me n I love him in return.

The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.
Galatians 5:6

My Celebrity Look-alikes

2007-03-15T10:35:00.001-07:00

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

HILARIOUS,HAHAHA!!!

My brother

2007-03-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

When love hurts,people tend to have two reactions.

One is move away from it,totally don't wanna know more about it.
The other one is,when it hurts more,they engage themselves in this pathetic situation more......just like a drug.Even tho they know that's not doing them any good but they keep wanting more.

Funny how people like to indulge in negative emotions sometimes......including myself.I'm glad to have known God so that I am not doing a good job in this aspect anymore.

Witnessing my brother to be hurt by love,and then hurt more by getting himself more into the whole thing is not easy.Even I have some much faith that God will heal his broken heart or even feel thankful for what's happeneing right now,but yet I find it really hard to see him acting this way.Being a sister,I always respect my brother.Even tho there may be things I view differently from him,but I always voice it out in a tender way.However,this time I just really can't help myself but talking to him in a strong way.Losing himself and not knowing our first priority in life is God,that's not good.

What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world,yet forfeits his soul?Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? Mathew 16:26

It totally breaks my heart when he told me he had nothing left anymore if this girl leaves him......I cried helplessly.People always disappoint us,but never do God.As I was praying with him together,I felt God's broken heart as well.I know God is using all these to renew him,to make him a stronger and wiser man of God.Starting from the day that God has chosen him,he has no where to hide from God and he knows it's been too long for him to be a lukewarm Christian.From the day God has chosen me and him,I know he has chosen my WHOLE FAMILY as well.I just feel so excited with what God's gonna do even everything seems going down right now,coz I know God'll never let go,never ever let go.

My mother

2007-03-08T10:42:00.000-08:00

唔知由幾時開始，媽咪由唔想我拍拖到擔心我做咩唔拍拖。

今年新年，我媽咪竟然問我有冇人要同佢拜年。我答冇佢竟然露出失望表情，笑死我。
情人節又問我有冇人約。我話有，約口左梁漢文(因為要開工)，佢嚇到眼凸。
呢種情況，更有嚴重趨勢。

話說我好耐冇放假，諗住出街行下。見咁耐冇著過裙，於是著下。臨出門口，俾我媽咪嗌番我轉頭問我係咪約口左人食飯。我話唔係，佢竟然叫我係既話記住話俾佢知，激死。女人，原來真係太敏感。

我媽媽應該係世上最可愛既阿媽。

are you kidding me

2007-03-06T11:18:00.000-08:00

Is there any moments in your life you are like "God,are you kidding me?" ?

After the whole long period of crazy schedule,shows and festival activities,I finally get to do things I haven't been doing for a long time,like asking my friends to come over,figure out what's going on with my bank account,mend my broken arms n legs,sleep and hang out with God at church etc.

Since it's been a long time my friends haven't been coming over to hang out at my place,I decided to make some simple food to surprise them a lil bit.Instead of getting bored with being fed by pizza hut,I rather take the risk of making their tummy get sick,ha.So as they were having crazy fun with the new toy Wii,keep on almost hitting the plasma tv,I was running back n forth kitchen to prepare dinner.And when they were enjoying the food,one of my friends said,"well,I now believe that nothing is impossible as even Judith knew how to cook now."......I know they love me,ha.

So it's been a while I have been talking to God about a certain matter,when I thought I had the answer,God totally surprised me.And then I was like,"Are you kidding me?".I still can't help thinking about it even though I know HIS thoughts are higher than mine......so much higher I should say from my experiences.Probably he's laughing at me now like how my dad used to laugh at me when I didn't know what he's talking abt......hahaha......I guess I'm totally out of my mind here already,what a random post.....

Working pics

suffocated

2007-02-25T08:54:00.000-08:00

suffocated

In pain

2007-02-16T11:39:00.000-08:00

Basically,I was trying to do better with a certain move at work today and I twisted my right hip-joint(is it what it called?the ball-n-socket joint holding the pelvis n leg together......anyways).

So in pain but still have to teach dance class after rehearsal.So wanna give up the class and took sick leave but I knew I shouldn't coz it's gonna disappoint my students.Then I used 5 mins to run up the stairs next to dragon-i to the studio and did my job.I'm more than happy to teach my students but kept sreaming "soooooo painful" deep down from my heart,hahaha,so stupid.

But God's awesome and he just has the perfect timing for everything coz I'm gonna have holidays these few days and I can rest up a bit.

The only thing that sucks is all the doctor are having chinese new year holiday already and I have nowhere to go to fix it......

Still spent the nite with Ling and whole bunch of people to cwb flower market.I really wanna stayed hm originally but I knew I have promised Ling and it meant sth to her.But I'm so glad I did go coz it's too much fun and I can shake off my stress from work...tho...the pain is so with me now......

work work work work

2007-02-08T09:49:00.000-08:00

I love the job that God's given me,
but I need a breakthrough......desperately.

Show

2007-01-31T00:09:00.000-08:00

Hey,all,sorry for being too lazy to update last night.I basically became unconcious after show and I fell asleep right the way with all my make-up and hair-do on......stinky,yeah i know,ha.

Show was really good.I always have much respect for this artist I have been working for.Even though many people thought he's old-school or dumb,but that's so not true.If you get to know him in person,he's such a gentleman and GENEROUS man as well,hehe.Even not talking how about how generous he is,his songs are truly great and many of them are very negative,I can even say educational.What we usually do is,we'll stand-by besde the stage one song ahead.That's the time I found myself truly appreaciate him deep down from my heart,as such a talented and all-rounded artist.The lyrics he writes touch people heart and his passion for music is crazy.I don't really remember how old is he already,but I'm sure he's already pretty much up to the age to retire and sit back home enjoying his life.It so breaks my heart to see that,last time when we went to practise,he couldn't even be able to flip over the music sheet smoothly by himself.But his passion for music makes him being able to carry out the show,isn't it crazy?It would be so great if everyone's like this,be passionate about God to this extend.

Once again when I stepped on the stage,I was there dancing but deep down in my heart,I'm shouting out the stage belongs to God.As usual,God's the best audience ever.I am so thankful that he gives me the chance to be a performer,to be on the stage around the world.I couldn't help thinking about one day,we'll be on stage around the world,ministering people through dancing and performing arts.

Tmr I'll get stuck in the plane again for another 19 hours.But I'm coming home,yeah!I miss everything in HK.I want to upload some pictures but my colleague was already sleeeping so I don't know where's the card reader.Basically,I keep coming across problems with my technology stuff throughout.It totally freaks me out when one day I found my nano not working at all......Thanks God he saves my nano at last,otherwise I don't know how to survive that 19 hrs.I'm so excited to come back even I have to work on the day I arrive already,but I'm loving it!!

Different

2007-01-29T05:01:00.000-08:00

It's like 8am in toronto now.I found out I just need four hrs sleep here in Toronto.

Going on tour this time felt a lil bit different.
It's been a long while that I didn't go on tour bcoz of what I've promised to myself at the beginning of the last year.I really wanna spend more time with my family and friends,to witness growth and life together.

Whenever I went on tour in the past,it's pretty much like working,eating and drinking.I don't really know whether I miss home or not bcoz I just wanna seize every moment out of town to lose control,to try to fill the big hole in my heart with worldly joy. It's been a crazy time and the hole is too big that no matter what I put in to try to fill the hole,nothing stays to occupy it.Until God saved me again and his love is so great that it doesn't even allow a leak of anything.

This time to be on tour,I found myself naturally spending more time with God alone instead of hanging around.I just don't wanna miss the chance to be out by myself and hang out with God,without thinking abt what I haven't done,what calls to make......blah blah blah......It's been really sweet that God allows me to see so many beautiful things he created in different part of the world.But the sweetest thing is,God really remind me of what is it to be like home.I can't believe this time,I started to miss coming back on the 2nd day of the trip.It's great to be away,but it's even greater to be home the first time ever I felt in my heart.

And now,my sleepiness kicks in again......but gotta go rehearsal an hr later,ha.

So wrong

2007-01-28T20:13:00.000-08:00

I guess I am wrong.

It's not cold here.......but it's SUPER COOOOOOOLD!!!
So much colder than last year I was here.

Me and my roomate decided to take some pictures as we woke up early this morning.
We dressed according to our own perception,since we didn't feel it's really cold yesterday night,we kind of underestimate the coldness.

So we went down,took a few pictures and then found our fingers started to freeze,feel numb and then painful.We ran back with our highest speed to dress more,hahaha.Two stupid hk girls think they can fight the weather like locals.

But we had so much fun tho coz the scenery is beautiful,everything's so simple,pure and peaceful.

Not very excited with shopping......maybe bcoz we bought too much last year.But if Gabby's reading it,I went to MAC for ya arleady.Do I deserve you missing me that much,hun?ha!

Tomorrow is the show night.I'll keep my blogging up~

Still thinking it's not that cold and tried to fool around

Still trying to act cool but actually I'm almost frozen

Fire it up

All the girls

NEW YORK FRIES......yum......

Toronto

2007-01-28T00:00:00.000-08:00

Here I am at TORONTO.

It's not as cold as I expect.
It took us like almost 15 hours to get here including an hour stop at Alaska.But again,looking out of the plane window,seeing all these mountains covered by snow.It's stunning.God's awesome and so good at arts again,I think.

After an hour stop at Alaska,we had 6 more hours to go until we got here.I have no idea why our row is comparatively narrower than other rows,which make us feel so uncomfortable no matter what ways we try to sit or sleep.I turned out not being able to sleep much and kept myself busy with eating,music as well as NDS,he.

Thanks so much for everyone's message.I have never felt so loved before or on the way I go on tour......surprises me tho coz my frds always expect me to come and go,come and go.

And I guess my red hair didn't really get me into trouble when it comes to immigration and custom here,ha.

Picture times!

Arrived at Alaska

SOoooooo COOOLDDDDDDDDDDD!!

An hour later

On my comfy bed at hotel

Anyways,I'll try my best to update my blog everyday here(see if it works~:P).
You guys have a nice weekened in HK,missing everyone already!

I wish

2007-01-22T20:52:00.000-08:00

I wish I would never feel tired.

Looking at the pictures of my girls having hotpot together,and once again I missed this gathering,yeah,once again.

I was working that night,when I got off,I didn't even wanna move my butt and just wanna rush home.

I still remember back in two years ago,I would still be going to the gathering.I can still do thousands of things in one day.But now I may be only able to do three tasks maximum within a day(or maybe not even three).It's like the tireness two years ago is not as tired as the one I'm feeling now.How come?

I wish I would never feel tired.So I won't miss out too much......

Relaxing day

2007-01-15T08:55:00.001-08:00

Found a jewelry design having massive cross design,totally refreshing!!I still remember it took me so long to look for the cross ring on my forth finger,reminding me Jesus is my lover.Wonder if the designer is a christian......

You can tell my day was really relaxing...coz I have so much time to kill......

2007-01-08T12:37:00.000-08:00

COOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDDDDD

2007-01-08T01:38:00.000-08:00

Finally I feel like having winter in Hong Kong.

So here comes the things I really really wanna do this coming 2007;

1)Keep growing in God's words(read the whole bible)

2)Improve my dance skills n creativity

3)Be a gd witness no matter who I'm with,where I'm

4)Finish my vocal classes

5)Tidy up my closet(too many clothes......)

6)Learn one entirely new knowledge(haven't figured it out yet)

7)Get rid of what's unneccessary in my life

8)Try to call my friends more to catch up(I dunno why,I'm just not used to calling up people~)

9)Keep loving my family n colleagues n draw them closer to God

10)Last but not least......MORE OF GOD,LESS OF ME

KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE! :)

Goodbye 2006

2007-01-02T10:32:00.000-08:00

Wow,it's boring but I really have to say that TIME FLIES.2006 is gone already and I'm excited to run into 2007.

Basically,I didn't hv to work this Christmas(thanks God~) and I am blessed with the time hanging out with my family and church friends.Then comes New Years Eve,two shows.One for Nokia and One for Revolve.It's tired but I am really happy I was able to save the last dance in 2006 for God.

Here comes PICTURE TIME AGAIN!!!

180 dinner TABLE 7's the champ!!

Me n Ling acting stupid in front of Harbour City

Christmas Day @AMC

DISNEY TIME WITH MY BRO N HIS GURL

Acting like a physcho already on the train

Bro very serious with the itinery(pretend to be)

um......

dedicate to Christian,"slap-face family"

Now you feel how stressful me n my bro were at work......

I'm forced to take this pic

"Where's my prince......?"(my bro holding the camera n puking at the same time)

Revolve featuring Christian the Clown

ppl getting really hyper after dancing for hrs@vine

guys doing "I swear" at 4 in the morning......feel soooo cold coz of the singing

Thanks God for every single little thing.
More of you,less of me,I pray.

miss home

2006-12-18T10:36:00.000-08:00

Last Sunday was the Christmas Pageant in the vine.

It's so good.The kids are way tooooooo cute.When they were dancing on the stage,singing Christmas carols.I sudddenly wonder how would it feel like,if Jereome,Zanna and Faith were there as well.I remember how they used to run around in church,grabbing the bread in their little hands looking really satisfied,suddenly cried in the middle of the sermon......

I'm so thankful God bless me with a new home,a place to grow and to serve,loving brothers and sisters and sooooo much more.But to be honest,sometimes I missed the old days as well.Whenever I passed by that place,there are feelings in my heart that I don't know how to describe.It's like I can see the pink wall but it looks greyish in my heart,like a fading color picture.

I still remember the first Christmas spent there.We had a celebration thing,worship,speech and chill.I was the vocalist of that worship.Since we wanna make it really special,we made a medley of Christmas carols and worship songs.We spent a lot of time practising and it was sooooo much fun.I feel so warm still just as when I am typing this out.

And the years of Christmas after that,so many things happened and I missed spending Christmas in church for work reasons.This year,I am blessed with a holiday and I feel so "home-sick" after pageant.Sometimes I have an urge to go in and see who's there like what I used to do when I pass by,but I can always remember there's actually no one familiar anymore and I stop.

Life moves on, but something always stay in your heart.

UPDATE!!

2006-12-12T12:08:00.000-08:00

Here comes PHOTO update again......actually,just because I typed something but I accidentally kicked off the power supply and I don't wanna write it all again :P

Stage rehearsal in Macau......stinky,u feel that?

Karaoke with crazy Wong's sisterhood n whole bunch of hilarious people.

Gordon's bday seafood feast in Cheung Chau.Trying to look cool with those twinkle stars on the jacket.

Day-off with my dear dear Ling :)

Shooting for McDonald online ad

Dear Cherie bday dinner,super super nice dessert

And hotpot,bible SZ trip,so much more happened but just hv no pics to share.
Will update with the bible trip later :)

Thanks God for each and every amazing day.

I'll trust in you

2006-11-21T09:06:00.000-08:00

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Mathew 6:33

Til I see you face to face
and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

I will live to love you
I will live to bring you praise
I will live a child in awe of you

exhaust me,please

2006-11-19T09:18:00.000-08:00

Nice.

Bruises on left knees,
and bruises on right butt......

Almost grab my camera to photo it......

that's my job

luv it.

I gotta flip over in bed so as to avoid the pain......

Hillsong

2006-11-16T21:40:00.000-08:00

As we are approaching the year end,I was doing a little review of this year.

Basically,this year is a cycle of work,getting sick,rest and work again.
I don't know whether it's because I am a person designed to either work or getting sick,whenever I got a job done,I can never escape from physical weakness.

I got a cold after the music video shooting again.Non-stop coughing really annoys people I guess coz everyone looked at me like a freak in the MTR.

Anyways,Hillsong on Wednesday was AWESOME.When I saw all these people putting up their hands to receive this greatest love of all,it reminded me of how God has changed my life and perspective throughout the years.

I am always a person with strong sense of insecurity.Whenever I wanna get hold of something eternal,something that gonna stay with mr forever,it always disappoints me.I was up to a point that I thought I couldn't even manage to possess a pen forever coz I'll never know how things disappear in their own way.And of course,I don't even have to mention relationship or love when they are even more abstract in nature.But when I got to know Jesus in my life,I knew I finally found something that's eternal,that's unchanging.Maybe at the moment when I put up my hand,I didn't really understand christianity at all but I knew my life is gonna be different.

Throughout all these years,God has never forsaken me no matter how stubborn,how rebellious I was.There's no one else in the world can do me the same except my parents on earth.Even though sometimes I still disappoint him,but I'll still try my best to make everyday a battle won with his strength.

Below is the video clip made by Alfred for my friend's wedding,he's AWESOME!!He's a professional video editor in cR2.You can see how we torture the brothers on that big day(with love),wahahaha~

UPDATE

2006-11-10T23:18:00.002-08:00

This week has been really tight,especially yesterday night.
Repeated dancing the song for thousand times is for sure when shooting music video.Luckily,no heels,no crazy costumes this time.I love the song,very catchy with pumping bass beat,please show this new girl some luv.She can really SING!!

Body feeling so numb but always loving it with the sense of hyper-active in my blood.

Too many things happened.So i'll just have a photo update.

Gurls in Ben&Suki's banquet

Another wedding,bridesmaid at Jodie&Ken's wedding

Yik's brotherhood

Me&Ling,Steven,he cracks me up

Potluck party@Nat&Tam's place,Ce n Kristy sticking around the sashimi

Sofia's Birthday party

Shooting,me with my stupid nails in black&gold by request

cK Chan,the upcoming artist,show her some luv,she's AWESOME!

homies~

My little world

2006-11-09T10:42:00.000-08:00

I love Pokfulam.

No matter how tired it is after work,how far I have to travel back home,the moment I jumped off the mini-bus,I breathe FRESH air.

Everything here is so lovely.When I feel so disconnected to the world while I work,this is the only place I find it real.

When it's really late,no one's around and I can enjoy the beautiful scenery,the ocean,the trees,the grass and the sky.Don't have to care about time,don't have to care about people.

:)

This entry......is pretty stupid,haha~

2006-10-31T07:07:00.000-08:00

There is a girl.

She never expects the person meant to be so important to her career,barely even dance.

Those were the days,that she was trying to look cool,trying to act like she could dance but turned out looking super dumb,this person was taking pictures while she was dancing,thought she was the best with no doubts in the eyes.Be with her while she was nervous waiting for audition results.Tolerate her craziness when she fell apart with ugly cometitions n stress.Took her to the doctor when she got injured with intense practices.Supported her with no second thoughts when everyone around criticized her with this dream.

As time goes by,people head to different directions in life.She may not understand why but she knew she had to go on this journey no matter what,even though it's lonely,it's never easy.With all these sweats and hard work,she made it to where she wanna be.But there's one day,after she walked off the stage,feeling something's missing.She stood in front of the mirror,removing the make-up and undo the hair.She couldn't help but the tears sliding down from her cheek to the table.The image in the past overwhelmed her.

Pouring out all the courage she had in life,she asked the person to come and watch the show.Maybe it's only a show to many people,but deep down,it's so much more to her.For how many times,she wanna say thank you for the support from the beginning,wanna say sorry for the wrong-doings,wanna share all these achievements and applauses,but could never speak even one single word beause of pride.On the stage,she danced like there's no tomorrow because of this guest.She smiled professionally when she spot this special audience was taking pictures again,like the old days,even though her brain had already started flashing-back.The show ended.When she went back home,feeling very satisfied and she cried.

She knows it's worth it,all these sweat,blood,pain and tears.Because she remembers,how perfect she once was in someone's eyes,even she was nothing.

All for love

2006-10-22T10:58:00.000-07:00

All for love, a Father gave

For only love could make a way

All for love, the heavens cried for love was crucified

Oh, how many times have I broken Your heart

But still You forgive if only I ask

And how many times have You heard me pray

Draw near to me

Everything I need is You

My beginning, my forever

Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love

I will join the angel song

Ever holy is the Lord

King of glory, King of all

All for love a Savior prayed

Abba Father, have Your way

Though they know not what they do

Let the cross draw man to You, to You

To You, to You

what's on my mind

2006-10-20T11:05:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had this experience in life?

I love buying shoes.
However,for many times,they may not have the right size for you.
Then,I'll think maybe I can try it on even the size is a little bit smaller than what I usually wear.

When u try it on,it's so hard to resist it anymore.Thousands of reasons pop up in mind right the way to buy the shoes.And all of a sudden,the size is not right doesn't seems a problem anymore.

When I'm all happy I have a new pair of shoes I like,and I even can't wait to put on it right the way,I start to feel the pain not even after 5 mins.What's worse is,one more step I take,it hurts me more than the previous step.

At the end of the day,when I take off the shoes back home,I know in my heart no matter how nice it looks on my feet,I'm not gonna wear it anymore.Not because I don't like it,not because I do not care about the cost,but it's just way too painful.

How bad I wish they would have the right size for me at first hand.Then it'll be a happy ending.

Proverbs 11:30
The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life, and he who wins souls is wise.

I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within;
I lay it all down for the sake of you my King;
I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my right;
I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life;
And I surrender all to you, all to you

I'm siniging you this song, I'm waiting at the cross;
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss;
For the sake of knowing you the glory of your name;
To know the lasting joy even sharing in your pain

......

2006-10-17T23:31:00.000-07:00

I'm just so helpless in the way my body collapse.
It's been too long I guess and somehow got no clue in what to do to recover my body from prolong exhaustion.

Got stuck......no matter to move on or go back,it's not easy.

I guess I gotta pray......

Sister out of town

2006-10-15T00:00:00.000-07:00

Hurray,I'm SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!
My sister set off for her one week china trip to GuangZi today.
The reason I am excited sounds so numb tho...IT'S HER FIRST TIME IN LIFE TO BE OUT OF TOWN WITHOUT ANYONE IN THE FAMILY!!!

I feel that's gonna be a life-turning point for her life,from how she used to feel she doesn't have enough to realise how blessed she is.Instead of complaining what she couldn't have to treasure what she already had,it's somehow exciting for the sister to witness this growth.(Wait,I guess I am assuming too much,maybe she'll just moarn over how the trip sucks n food's bad so n so,hahaha)

Anyways,other than that,I have the chance to tidy our room.It's been a mess for too long and I can take this chance to throw away everything......kekeke~

Rest

2006-10-11T11:37:00.000-07:00

My soul finds rest in God alone.My salvation comes from him.

Psalm 62:1

Getting sick every month is totally no fun at all.And I hate to tell ppl that I'm sick again,it's boring,hahaha,what a reason.

I have faith that I can be healthy.

crazy birthday present from my dance students

2006-09-27T11:47:00.000-07:00

Tonight,I had my birthday dinner with my dance students.

When I got my first birthday present,I was so amazed already.It's a bunch of flower with a happy birthday decorated,all hand-made.

The second one...almost made me cry...even I was just reading the first page of that present.

It's a book made by pizza...with all my dancing pictures,captures from different gigs I hv done fore the past years,pictures with different ppl I met in my dance life.There are so many pictures I don't even know they exist,but she collected it all,and made it so beautifully,and there's even a VCD enclosed in the book with all my performance videos.At the end of the book,there are blessings n notes written by many of my students I have taught before.

When I got home,I gone thru the book in details for three times...yes,three times.Every word speaks to my heart,every picture reminds of how God blessed me on the stage,blessed me with my dancing students,when I am totally mad at him.Yeah,it reminds me why do I wanna dance again.For I know,dance is always more than just a dance,more than just something cool.It's something that can change ppl's heart,sth for ppl to express their feelings,sth to heal ppl's wounds n un-tie knots.I never expect teaching dancing or being a dancer,means so much too ppl around me.I never expect my students will be ministered with the class they took,with some casual chat after class,with my stupid acts in class,with the moves I created.

I love every students of mine,even though I may not be the best dance teacher,but every time I teach,I teach with my whole-heart.Sometimes,I see them as dancemates more than my students.I learn through them as well,I got ministered through them as well.I am so blessed with all these luv I dun deserve to have for I am someone who try to dance,not even dare to call myself a dancer.I do not take this for granted n I am even more motivated to be better,for all these support God has sent me through my students.

I really wanna take this chance to say thank you to my students.You all never know how much you guys mean to me.Thanks for seeing me more than someone who can only teach dancing,but as well as walking together in the journey of life.I pray that God will bless each one of you,to live a life to the fullest,to dance to the fullest,to hv the joy to the fullest.Pizza,things you think I may forget,I didn't.It's craved in my heart coz I feel so blessed to share my life with you as well.Let's go eat ramen some time later again! :P

God,I am speechless when I see overflow blessings from this book.

Take it from here

2006-09-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

Some times
Some times the world gets hard
I’ll take it from here, girl
Don’t you worry

I wanna be a lake for you, babe
And any problems that you have I wanna wash ‘em away
I wanna be your sky, so blue and high
And every time you think of me I wanna blow your mind

I wanna be your air, so sweet and fair
So when you feel that you can’t breathe, ma, I’ll be
there
I wanna be your answer of time
When you see how I put your life before mine with no
question

When all the love feels gone and you can’t carry on
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine every mornin’,
every time
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here

I wanna hold your hands, review all your plans
I wanna make sure every one of your dreams’ll stand
I wanna be your Broadway show on review (Why)
So I could act how God was when he made you

I wanna be your lighthouse when you get lost
I’ll light a bright and shiny path to help you across
(Light the way for you, baby)
I wanna be your mother, see what I see
When you see that can’t nobody hold you like me ‘cause
I love you

When all the love feels gone and you can’t carry on
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here (Take it
from here, baby)
Just as sure as the sun will shine every mornin’,
every time
Don’t worry, girl (No, no, no, no), I’mma take it from
here

And when there’s no one there at home and you realize
the world is cold
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here (That’s
what I’m gonna do)
Just as sure as the sun will shine every mornin’,
every time (Don’t you worry, baby, baby girl)
Don’t worry, girl (Baby girl), I’mma take it from here

Give me one reason why we should not be leavin’
This world is so deceivin’, the time is now
Let’s fly away speedin’ through the Garden of Eden
Where all the sweet breathin’ and love surrounds

When all the love feels gone and you can’t carry on
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine every mornin’,
every time
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here

Give me one reason why we should not be leavin’
This world is so deceivin’, the time is now
Let’s fly away speedin’ (Fly away) through the Garden
of Eden
Where all the sweet breathin’ and love surrounds

When all the love feels gone and you can’t carry on
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine every mornin’,
every time
Don’t worry, girl, I’mma take it from here

Got something I wanna tell you, baby
Now they always the way write books
See, there’s the good guys and also heartbreak crooks
Your heart’s the real one, just take a look inside
‘Cause there’s a colorful illustrated guide

So there you go
To help you weather the storm
I’ll be there, mami
No matter what time, no matter what place
You could always count on me
I’ll take it from here

Sometimes love just ain't enough

2006-09-06T11:00:00.000-07:00

Had a great day today.NICE MOIVE,BEST THEATRE IN HK I CAN SAY,NICE FOOD!What can I ask for more?!

Special thanks to my honey,I got my FIRST birthday gift for my 22nd birthday.She just knows too well what I like.

For the weakest thing in my life......I guess I never learn it well.

It reminds me of my favorite song

Sometimes love just ain't enough

What's wrong with me

2006-09-01T00:32:00.000-07:00

I am feeling so sick with my stomach.......it's been already the 5th day...all these pain n diarrhea is killing me.
Already being a good girl...just eating congee n taking medicine regularly...

I wanna eat ice-cream.....

A break

2006-08-22T11:15:00.000-07:00

cool...I finally have a totally work-free trip...been waiting for 2 yrs n accidentally got it.

I'll be right back on Sat night.Can't wait for spending quality time with myself n Jesus.

2006-08-06T08:45:00.000-07:00

Too many things happened make me get stuck with what to write.

Just like when praying these days,there are so many things I wanna say but with no right words coming out.Calling his name is all I can do.

But I know God knows it all.

Struggles n battles happen almost every second in my mind these days...even when I try to sleep.Total failure I can see this time for me going back to the industry.No matter it's spiritual or physical,I srew it all up.Losing 7 pounds in two weeks time n spiritually deaf is not a gd phenonmenon for me to go on with anything.

Doubt myself with the ability to handle stress or am I just too spoiled by my family?
Why on earth dancing can be so unjoyful suddenly even I know I am not dancing for any earthly thing?Why do I feel so weak still when I look up to the lightings in the coliseum n I know God's there?Why do I hv to tremble when I look at the stage,a place I was once obssessed with...but not anymore?

Felt so upset with everything going round n round in the circle...even when I thought I am changed n hv got out of it n tragic to know that's totally not true when it came to a certain moment.

finally

2006-08-01T23:10:00.000-07:00

Finally make it.

Finally the forgotten dream happened,archieved...unexpectedly.

Finally......

Sorry

2006-07-02T11:44:00.000-07:00

It's hard to love sometimes.

Even they are my relatives,my dad's brother n his wife,but then what?Why do they come and knock our door whenever they get into trouble n my dad will be running around here n there no matter what he's doing at the moment?

I know I should not judge,but every time they take everything for granted.Every time,they'll just sit there n wait for help n money.Every time,they'll just get what they need n go.Come one,give my daddy a break.

I cried,bcoz I am worried of my daddy.He's growing old n he's got this burden on him for his majority time in the past already.I luv my dad,I luv him so much that I dun even wanna make him worry abt a single thing.So that's why I tried to take care of myself,I tried to handle all my problems on my own,coz I want him to hv really gd rest back home after a long day work.I cried,bcoz I am ashamed of myself,for how not merciful I am.How I can't put up with this whole thing happening again n again.How I exactly know I should love them no matter what but I seriously CANNOT!!!

It's like almost 3 am now but my dad n my bro are still out there in the police station to take care of him,while his own wife is resting n not even care abt it at hm.What?I almost grabbed the phone n asked her "what's wrong with you?" but I hold myself down bcoz I know my dad won't like this,my Daddy in heaven won't like this as well.

I am sorry,God.

THIRST

2006-06-30T10:49:00.000-07:00

So it was THIRST tonight.

I can breathe God's presence,when we dance,when we worship,when we listen to preach.

It's such a privilege for me to be in this team,to create a dance with God's strength,to push the team go forward n do better for Jesus.God called Revolve to be a dance team of his heart,a family in His Kingdom.When we prayed for the "Thirst" in Revolve,God really spoke to me He's gonna bring Revolve to a new level,no matter it's technically or spiritually.There's nth more I can say when I got this coz it's such an honor,it's such a blessing to the team.We'll keep humble ourselves,keep moving forward,keep stretching harder,keep sweating more,JUST bcoz JESUS ROCKS!!!

Breakthrough
Tonight,I told God,I am ready.If He's gonna send me back to the dance community out there,I am not afraid.It's easy to dance in Revolve coz it's overwhelmed with God's presence.But what about ppl dancing out there?They are in the darkness but yet always one step closer to the heavenly gate if they are surrounded by one more christian.I used to be scared bcoz I am afraid I will be dragged down by the darkness there again,get back to all those old habits,old behaviors.But tonight,God told me, "Therefore,if anyone is in Christ,he is a new creation;the old has gone,the new has come!"
So I am different n instead,I can be able to step out n tell them,"hey,you know what,there's a better way out n it's Jesus's luv!".It's tough but during the quiet time with God,he told me again "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being RENEWED DAY BY DAY."
So I am not gonna haunted by the past anymore coz God's already filled me anew,n I'm gonna ask me to tear me apart,to break me down,to empty myself n to fill me with the Holy spirit for sth new,sth closer to God everyday.

I was typing this when my whole family was watching the world cup out there,screaming n holla at the team.I wish one day,my mum n dad n sister will scream n holla for Jesus together with me n my bro,yeah.

sick

2006-06-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

Felt really dizzy during the practice of Revolve tonight.
Then,it's like an hour later.I felt like throwing up in the middle of the dance,so I rushed out to the washrm.
The team prayed for me n I really felt the strength of the team,coz we are called to be a team,in Revolve bcoz of Jesus.

I kind of feeling bad after that bcoz there's a voice telling me I suck n too weak to be leading...the struggle n argue within is huge.But then I remember,Jesus love me bcoz of who I am,but now what I have.And I'll just surrender all I hv in his hand.,no matter they are sth gd,or sth bad.

Still feeling very very sick now n tmr's gonna be my driving test again n a long day work.No idea with how I'm gonna survive thru another day but I hv faith in God's healing n guarding.My dear daddy will protect me.

I give praise to God,for he still uses me even I am weak,I am sick.I praise him bcoz of my sickness,his almighty power gather the team together stronger n know exactly where we should focus on.

2006-06-23T11:39:00.000-07:00

God,heal my ankle as if it's a new one.

REvvvvvvvooooolvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeee

2006-06-22T11:59:00.000-07:00

What a night coz it's...........REVOLVE!!!!!
And with our special guest from overseas,our music director JOE CHOW!!!(hahaha,thru ichat~Mac is amazing!!!it's a lil bit weird though.Some revolver said seeing Joe eating when we were doing warm-up............................)

It's a tiring night.I am using all of their energy up with the dance n even demanding more,all bcoz I know they CAN MAKE IT!!All things are possible in God,AMEN?
AMEN!!!!
Whenever I sweat n smell gross,I am happy(sick,huh?!).Coz I know I can still dance,n I sweat for Jesus.It's worth it bcoz I got joy dancing when the Lord is our audience.I got nervous n excited to do better when I know the Lord is our audience.HE deserves the best of us,right??
I just luv it every time before I prepare the dance.I pray n God just pour out moves n I dance it out with my body.Ask n it shall be given unto u,thank you Jesus.
Yeah,just like what Gabby said,DREAM BIG FOR JESUS.I used to dream big for myself n u found it empty at last.But it's always sweeeeeeeeeet to dream big for Jesus,with Jesus.

Home sweet home

2006-06-21T11:53:00.000-07:00

I was typing my diary out now in the balcony of my hm,where I can see the stars,the trees n the sea all these beautiful creations of God.

It's always a corner for a quiet mind of my own.It's a stage that I sing whatever I feel like singing.It's a place where I laid down my thoughts n emotions throughout the years.

Still remember how I used to hate my hm for it's soooo remote n disconnected to the city.It's sooooo tired for me to travel back n forth every single time.The silence here used to make me feel more empty n lonely after work.And I felt hard to breathe,to go on.

After living a whole yr in some place else,I found my hm the best place ever in the world.And I remembered my heart was broken when I realised mum n dad looked older after a yr of apart,all bcoz of my rebellious,bcoz I insist doing what I like,what I want.

Last year,I came back with a broken heart.And my mum was the one who told me,"Your God is still with u."n I started to realise how blessed I was with this family.How blessed I was being found n loved by the family again.How blessed I was to be able to do sth I like with the support of the family.How blessed I was to say "I love you" to my parents.How blessed to fool around with my bro n sis at late night.I never see them as sth special in life but now,it's meant a universe to me.I love them with 10 times,100 times,10000 times more than how I used to now.I just wish my mum n dad will follow Jesus n we can be a family in heaven.

It's crazy.I am here again,in this lil balcony to count my blessings again,listening to the silence again.And I can breathe again,I can dream again here,in my hm sweet hm.

June 2005

2006-06-18T10:51:00.000-07:00

Tonight,I think abt what I was doing at this period of time last yr.

There's just one word poped up in my mind......"ridiculous".
Not saying there's no pt to think abt it,it's the word used to describe my life.

I guess when u are up to a pt that u hate urself when u look at the mirror.Life's really pathetic.And that's me back in the days.It's specially hard when u still hv to smile n keep ur mood up on stage when there's nth u can cheer abt.

And how can u imgaine ppl performing on the stage look so confident,but underneath,you can't even persuade urself to believe "U look GREAT!!".And how many times I wanna give it all up bcoz of ppl kept telling me,"u can't make it,u are too small,u're too fat,u're too young,u're too unsociable.........blah blah blah.....".I just simply HATE myself at that time.And every single day I woke up,I did all my best to make myself taller n more skinny.(but u know it's impossible to "make" myself taller)It's stressing me so hard,making me soooooo skinny that I hardly locate myself from pic or video.

If u ever get a chance to go to backstage,u'll find it all so fake.
Every time,we go up stage with crazy energetic cool facial expressions.But once we stepped back into the black curtain,u'll never know how much mourning or complains we hv.I guess that's what "professional" ......

And there's even a time,a colleague was reminded of her broken relationship by a song in the concert.She suddenly couldn't help crying but we had to dance out there within a minute.It's breaking my heart as well coz I know how hard it's to go on.No matter u are sick,u are sad,u are injured,u are going to suffocated,THE SHOW MUST GO ON.

It's not until I dance in Revolve.God really spoken to me,"Where's ur heart for dancing?Why do u first start dancing?"
What a big smack on my face n I am so ashamed of myself.I only remembered what the world taught me but nth from God?!!

So I started dancing back,not only for "THE SHOW MUST GO ON",but for Jesus.And I start to realise I could never reach the place I hv reached without God.In the past,I thought I was LUCKY enough to get all these jobs with this height of mine.But now I know it's God indeed.When i worked with some of my colleagues recently,they thought I was insane or whatever every time they hear me talking things abt church.(But I am glad that God made me doing silly acts all the time so they still like hving fun with me.)I know there's a reason for me to still meeting them up n talking to them.

Anyways,now I love Jesus n I love everything he's given me,even I am small,fat n stupid....hehehe.

Father's Day

2006-06-18T09:05:00.000-07:00

It was Adam's last day in the vine.
Took a few pics for him,hope he'll like it.
We are all gonna miss u.REVOLVE will keep praying for u as A TEAM!!!

He's sharing some thoughts of his internship in the VINE.

Bro n sis praying for him

After that,rushed to the chinese restaurant to celebrate Father's Day with my adorable Daddy.He liked the gift so much.We had yummy "Chiu Chow" food there.

My daddy's smile soooo sweet~

I had fun with the food we ate again.This time is sth called "yeung chun" noodles(guess there's no eng name~).

First,u hv to add some sugar onto it.And then add some vinegar(....a lil bit weird maybe....sweet n sour,but it's gd,who cares~).The vinegar will dissolve the sugar n stir it all up before u eat it.
SOOOOO GOOOOOD!!

Being interviewed+HAPPY BIRTHDAY,YIP TAI HON!!!

2006-06-16T10:36:00.001-07:00

Got interviewed by the APPLE DAILY cultural page today about my dancing life.I know,it's Apple Daily but I know if God's gonna use it,He'll make it happen in any media.

In the interview,I talked abt I started learning dancing bcoz I really wanna serve God with dancing,how I have fallen apart n how I got back to dance in REVOLVE.Yes,I saw her writing REVOLVE down n I hope she's writing all these out instead of how much money I made each month or whatever.I hope it's gonna be a ministry coz that's the only reason I am doing this.

She let me pick a place to shoot the photo so how can I not going back to the comfy studio in the Vine,where REVOLVE sweat n worship n praise God every week.This place means more than any stages or studios I hv been to in my life.

The interview was smooth n I prayed that God really spoke thru me n used this chance to reveal his mighty luv to the world.Though again,it's in APPLE DAILY but I hv faith in God that HE'll take control of it.

So we celebrated HON's bday tonight as well as bible study,praise n worship night at Angel(GUYNETO)'s house.Hope you feel happy with our not really special n surprising arrangement,dear brother.N I'm prettty sure u like the gift I sent u,as I want it so badly for myself as well.It's "The end of sphere",a true-story based movie abt missionaries.

HIGHLIGHT OF TONIGHT: Casey made a history again

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btw,this is like HEAVEN!!

ruby tuesday CHOCOLATE TALLCAKE....yummy~

Vocal exam

2006-06-14T10:22:00.000-07:00

Ooh,btw,forgot to update how's going with my vocal exam.
It was.............AMAZING!

My teacher said I did unexpectedly well...(though I may not agree with her,but I' still happy with it.)

I tried to sing the majority part of "the herat of worship" with "CHEST VOICE",which is the voice I had never used throughout my life n probably the hardest thing I found in life to adapt to.
Anyways,I did it...I worship God in my exam,n I know HE is the only one who examine me n I hope HE likes it.

SO here comes the last minute practice of my exam in my hm church,with my crapy n wearing out voice.....

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dance class

2006-06-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

I am enjoying more day by day in teaching dance classes now.

I used to hate it as I really dun wanna be creative n it seems boring to me in the past,when compared to those fascinating things on stage.

I totally have no idea why I am changed n I am quite sure only Jesus can mould my stubborn n subjective heart.
God is really creative n HE's always there to dance me sth new n exciting when I am running out of ideas.That really cast out burden of teaching class.(sometimes,it's really hard to "squeeze" sth out.)

It's really happy to see students coming back to take classes every week as I can know more abt every single one of them.
I now used to leave my contact to them so they can reach me or just chit-chat anytime.Even if they are not coming back to class,I can still update with what's going on with them n I know it's gonna be a ministry.There's nth more important than a life saved.

What's going on?

2006-06-12T12:54:00.000-07:00

Got a day-off today
So I went to have dinner with my bro n sis in church as well as a movie night out.

I just dunno why,whenever I hang out with them,I always make myself a joke.

I believed in HON's trick again.

(Calling HON......
你好,呢度係One2Free流言信箱服務...
Then I waited for the "BEEP" sound so that I can leave a msg to him.
I hv been waiting for like almost half a min but there's no "BEEP" sound at all.
Then,I heard someone giggling on the other side of the phone...n I totally gone
crazy!!!!!I WAS BEING TRICKED AGAIN!!When no one's expecting anyone will believe in
it!!)

Went to watch DA VINCCI CODE.Didn't really enjoy the whole thing except the seat as we were watching it in palace theatre...soooooo comfy.Started to get lost with what's going on in the movie from the middle.I can't even distinguish who are friends,who are enemies of each other.It really showed how unconcerntrated I was to the scene,when I saw IAN McKELLER appeared in the movie,the only thing I could think of is MAGNETO,and more n more scenes from XMEN 3.CRAZY!!But it's a nice chill anyways.

So tomorrow,I'm gonna hv my vocal exam.Well,I should not say exam coz I hv picked a worship song as my exam piece.So it's gonna be a worship indeed.Bless me,my friends.I dunno will there be anyone sitting in the exam as well but I pray that there WILL be.It's gonna be a ministry time to my friends,teachers n classmates out there.

(I was trying to imitate Angel's look when she's eating the shanghai fried bread...so cute...n there's a guy looking at us acting crazy in the background)

sleepless

2006-06-09T12:31:00.000-07:00

so sleepy,but can't sleep.
Stomach pain......again.It's been better for a while but I have no idea why it's getting back to me.
The pain stretches my stomach every 3 minutes.When I thought it was better,it came back......sort of like giving birth to a baby.

So I'm here to do something to spend my "painful" night.

Starting to think about my dance students,they are all so pretty in my mind.The way they learn,they respect n love me,I know I am blessed.I always remind them we are a TEAM,a loving n caring team(that sounds "old-skool" to them maybe~haha,but I know they won't mind~).What's more important than dancing with a joyful heart?Is that prize?Is that fame?That's what I thought in the past and I am now there to tell them not to forget the utmost enjoyment of dancing.It's how easy to get lost in this show-biz,when everything is a temptation,everything is sparkling n dazzling.

And I was watching the MV of kelly clarksons "breakaway".There's a shot captured the team praying together before the show.Yeah,it's beautiful.It reminds me of live album recording.It reminds me of "825" of hk swatow.God's always the best audience.

Soooo nice

2006-06-06T21:33:00.000-07:00

I got my babe,just feel too happy looking at it already.

hehe.....hehe.....(giggling~)

Global prayer day

2006-06-04T11:53:00.000-07:00

It was the global prayer day today.
Luckily,I didn't get there too late after work.
It's the first time for me to join this.
Yeah,I believe that when we all humble ourselves n cried out Jesus's name,HE will come n heal our land.

Took a couple pics with my cell phone when the vine worship team went on stage to lead the worship.I tried so hard to take a pic for Derek but there's a lady responsible for translation kept standing in front of him n i couldn't capture a whole Derek at all,sorry Derek~

Anyways,the worship is AWESOME!!!SO MANY PPL WORSHIPPING TOGETHER IN HK STADIUM!

WE ARE FAMILY!

2006-06-01T23:18:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time for our whole family to go out and eat together.

We went to "Peking Garden" on Wednesday night.
I had so much fun with my favorite "Peking Duck".Yeah,so yummy n so funny!
The part I enjoy most from eating "Peking Duck" is,you have to make it on your own.

First,you have to grap a sheet of flour.Then you place the peking duck in the middle of the sheet.Then,you add some green onion and sause onto it.

Lastly,wrap it up together and have a big bite on it!

And here comes more pic of my family!!

Me n Daddy

Mommy n Sister

Bro n his girfriend,May

Thank you Jesus,I love my family......n peking duck as well.

Help!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-05-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

Got stuck.

Nth comes out when thinking abt the dance for my students' competitions.What's wrong?
For a whole weekend already,my mind's empty.

what should I do?what should I do?what should I do?what should I do?what should I do?

Keep singing for God

2006-05-27T11:09:00.000-07:00

Went to take the private vocal class from Ruth yesterday.
For those who dunno,she offered me a free vocal class after I told her I was so frustrated with all of my practices)

Pray and pray so hard before I went there as I was so freaked out,and feeling ashamed of how least improvement I was making.

But I know this was a door,a chance offered by God n I would still go for it(even I kind of really wanna give up already~).

Ok,so I went there,still with the freaky mood.
And we started practising,and since I was toooooooo nervous,she asked me to sit down to rest a bit after half an hr.We started chatting then.

I dunno where came the courage making me to say things like that, "Ruth,you know what,I learn singing not bcoz of career aspects,but for serving God."
She then talked to me abt her experiences of y she came back to hk even though she absolutely enjoyed her new life out of town so well.When God called her to come back to help out her church in hk,she's like "NO WAY!!!" But,yeah,she obeyed n came back anyways.And she totally had no idea y after she came back,the elderly in her church gave her all the authority over all worships in church.And she started up working it out with her son.More and more youth were drawn to the church and the whole church changed,bcoz of the revival of worship.

Then she said,she has never done sth like this before,offering free private class to students.And she kept repeating to me dun give up,no matter is my own church or what God's called me to do(just as what CeCe told me one nite).Seriously,I really believe God blessed me with this teacher.Though I guess I was still stucking at the break-thru pt,but I will still insist trying hard for God.yeah,for I dun really deserve all these but yet he's giving me all these,so much more.

And I am not gonna give up my own church as God's already answering all prayers already.Just like what Jan written in her blog,we HAVE to hv faith on what we hv asked for as God has already revealed HIS almighty power,in our place,in HK n in ALL NATIONS!

Revvvvvvvvvo........lve

2006-05-24T09:23:00.000-07:00

Dear God,I'm amazed by you.

Tonight,we had Revolve practice.I should not say practice,I should say Revolve MINISTRY instead.

Why I am amazed?

It's bcoz I saw God's work again,again n again in Revolve.
We didn't ask for spectacular techniques from God,but the growth of spiritual life instaed.But yet,God still blessed us with really SIGNIFICANT PROGRESSION ON EVERYONE IN THE TEAM.

I taught 2 eights today,which I didn't try to make it easy.I first worried if it would be too hard or whatever.But how amazingly,they did SO WELL!!!

People out there take half a year or more than that to make progress in dancing.But how great God's blessing is,he made them improved in 3 MONTHS!!!

What God revealed me in Revolve tonight

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God;and his righteousness;all these things shalled be added unto you;"
Mathew 6:33

GOD,YOU ARE GOOD!

Back to my other aspects of life......somehow,it's too frustrating recently.Every aspects no matter work,class and tests,all went wrong indeed.
Especially frustrated with the vocal class,coz I got stuck at a point.The exam is coming in mid-June and I know I am not gonna make it unless God's doing miracles.But what frustrates me most is not the matter of score,but the way I cannot breakthru by my comfort way to sing.I really wanna learn to step out of my comfort zone and do sth/make sth gd to serve God.

The process of learning,is always fun at first,but getting harder and harder step by step...and tooooooo hard.

FAILURE

2006-05-22T10:39:00.000-07:00

I FAILED THE ROAD TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!